CONFUSING MY HEART

DID MY HEART BREAK THIS TIME?

I contacts with my ex few days ago.

I had delete her from my facebook's friends list&block her in msn

but few days ago....

I told my sis,shafiqah..tat i miss him so much..

she try to comfort me...

and finally i decided to remove the block in msn.

Because i knew she will find me 1st

And she REALLY msn me 1st.

we started to talk.

it's took a very long time.

he told me how's his life....

and the important thing..

he already find himself a new one...

well,I got no feeling at that moment.

my mind is totally blank

I don't know what I should tell him..

I'm don't whether i'm happy or sad.

NO FEELING AT ALL

But I wish he is happy with his new lover sincerely.

I know I can't change his mind anymore,

& i found myself already no more feeling towards her.

It's may be a good news 4 both of us.

Now,I am a sister 4 him....

ya,he called me sis in msn...

sincei don't know a better ways to avoid that.

after msn with him,I ly on my bed.

It's so silent tonight.

I felt empty.

I was keep thinking about what we talked in msn.

and the memories back to my form 2.

i wrote a letter my feeling towardshim.

the feeling grow stronger aftr happened some incident...

1st time i fell in love with someone so deeply.

He is the one i love the most and the one hurt me the most.

but he really make me become stronger.

I just dunno wat to say when i knw he got new 1..

i wish him happy with new 1...

but i...

confused..........

just CONFUSING!!!
BUT THAT TIME WHEN I STARTED TO LOVE YOU,I DECIDE TO GIVE YOU HAPPINESS
SINCE NOW I AM X MORE THE ONE WHO CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY
I JUST WISH YOUR NEW ONE IS REALLY YOUR TRUE CHOICE

The day you finally decide to love me will be the day after the day I have given up on chasing you