AMUSED!!

Izzit when a lesbian turn back to normal will become more...MIANG?

oh...i felt extremely uncomfortable with that!! ill..YUCK!

i saw her (someone you know...) when im went to work afternoon just now.

she was walking with a guy silently...like thief...=.=

she used her purse closed her face maybe don't want to let anyone recongnize her?

or she SHY?? perhaps!!

Ill....i still recongnize her....=.=

she keep looking at the guy...

but the guy didn't look at her at all! haha

and the guy look like annoyed...LMAO

and the stories just end here...u might ask WHY?!

haha....because i cant stand any longer for the view~~

AMUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=.=...WTF

people worth a mistake

I really don't believe with what i watched, heard... I hope it is a fake.

but...fact is still fact. I must accept it. 

still no matter what happen,i had forgive him.

i would like to give him another chance to correct the situation.

I will support him in future.

on the right finger

Right hand and left hand has a different meaning.

Right hand little finger: No love.

Right hand ring finger: in love.

Right middle finger: dated other people.

Right index finger: singles.

The left hand little finger: does this.

Left ring finger: marriage.

Left middle finger: engagement.

Left index finger: Single.

The meaning of thumb represent the power, the meaning of self-confidence can do

So, i wish my loved 1 can put the ring on my right finger....=)

爱

      在黑暗中独坐，外面下起了一场雪，已经是十二月了，是冬天的降临。不知是我太糊涂还是多余，总觉得这个季节特别的寒冷。冬天不都是这样的吗？可是我却比别人多了一份孤单。听说有爱的人是幸福，是不会感到孤单的。对啊，我也曾经感受过它的存在。它是多么完美，使人无法不沉醉。每个人都有一段悲伤，想遗忘却忍不住回想。爱，对现在的我来说是那么的遥不可及，但还是一样那么的幸福。他离开了我是无法挽回的实事，但幸亏他没把这份爱给带走——   谢谢，爸爸！

      说不清的思绪又回到了过去，当时我还是五六岁的小毛头，很多事情还学不会，是爸爸耐心的呵护我给我依靠和安慰。很不幸地那一年的夏天他患了一个很罕见的病——葛雷克式症，又称渐冻人。这个病真的很可怕，爸爸的身体一天一天变得僵硬麻痹。医生说这种病到目前为止都还没找到妙方医治，他吩咐我和妈妈要多多给爸爸鼓励和安慰。他也希望我们可以做好心理准备。我和妈妈都很清楚爸爸所生的时间不多，可是我们都不敢告诉他，深怕他会看不开做出傻事。爸爸也很了解他自己的病情，但他却很坚强一直的安慰我们要我们别担心，在他面前我们都是强颜微笑，他也是面带笑容的欢迎我们。可是我们心里都有着一根刺插在心里，感觉很难受。

     那段期间我和妈妈都常常往医院跑，甚至留宿在医院陪爸爸。虽然这段期间很难熬，妈妈为了爸爸不断地蹦坡劳累，可是只要能和爸爸多相处再疲惫也无所谓。所谓∶“好花不常开，好景不常在”，某天早晨醒来时，爸爸突然发了疯不停地尖叫把病房里其他的病人都给吵醒了。他的尖叫声让人毛骨悚然，鸡皮疙瘩。我慌张地捉着爸爸的手，说不出一句话。那一刻我完全愣在那里，尽管爸爸使劲地大喊大叫，我仿佛完全听不到了……爸爸的手很冰冷，摸起来还感到一份刺痛的感觉，太可怕了。我看着爸爸，可是眼前的这个人怎么会是我的爸爸呢？爸爸长的很俊俏，身体非常健壮—…… 可是眼前的这个人身体变得很可怕，瘦得完全可以看到骨头和筋脉，冷冰冰的手和无光泽的皮肤，感觉好像是一具死体。

      过后爸爸被送到实验室检查，医生把他的衣服都脱光，然后把裸体的爸爸抱起放在一张可以乘重量的床上。当医生把爸爸放在床上的那一刻，床头的电脑荧幕出现了一排红色的字。妈妈顿时倒在地上崩溃地哭了起来，我很想安慰她，可是我无能为力，我连自己也说服不了眼前所看到的是事实，真的很不可思议。荧幕显示11.97公斤，完全比正常人的重量还要少。我走到爸爸身旁看着他那憔悴的脸，他却用那绝望的眼神看着我。那一刻真的仿佛有几千把隐形的到往心里插，我还是忍不住泪水在他面前哭了。我一直害怕的事情真的会实现吗？爸爸真的会死吗？

从那天起，爸爸已经完全放弃求生的意志。对所有事务不理不睬，不肯进食，还不时地乱大发脾气。但妈妈却没有因此放弃爸爸，她任劳任怨地付出。爸爸却完全毫不领情。不久过后，我们就不想的语言障碍也产生了。这样的情况真的很让人心疼，妈妈也整天以泪洗脸。而我只能站在一旁观看，什么都做不了，只能祈祷爸爸可以平安度多这些难熬的光阴。终于有一天，最不想发生的事情发生了。爸爸尽然看不开，咬舌自尽。他满嘴都留着鲜血，我们发现得太迟了，医生也无法抢救。爸爸就这样离开了。

用情不住流水，爱比不爱可贵，爸爸给的爱是永远都没有人可以取代的。我永远都不会忘记爸爸会一直保护着我即使他已不再我的身边了。我已长大成人，一点点挫败，说历经沧桑，仍微不足道。你给的爱是那么强烈，让我的思念一直苦苦相随。妈妈就让我这个女儿去爱吧，不用担心我们了。安息吧！

I AM NOT A WEAK PERSON

WORKING IS NOT GAME,

DON'T EVER WANNA TRY IT....

WHY I SAID SO?

ERM..LET'SEE...

LIKETHIS?FACING PROBLEM ON WORKING?

GET SCOLD FROM KLIEN?BOSS?

 OVERPROTECTIVE IS MY STYLE..

AS A CHINESE,DIGNITY IS WHAT I PROTECTING ALL THIS TIME..

I DON'T WANT SURRENDER YET I FELTT HELPLESS

WHEN SOMEONE LOOKING ME DOWN I JUST FELT WANT TO PROVE TO THEM THEY ARE WRONG!

I MIGHT WHAT THEY SAID....

I KNEW MYSELF VERY CLEARY,I KNEW MY LIMIT

BUT SOMETIMES I AM JUST NOT WHO I AM...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT NEITHER...OK,JUST IGNORE THIS.

WELL,THIS WORKING EXPERIENCE HAD GIVING ME A HOPE...

NOT A HOPE OF CONTINUE WORKING HERE.

BUT A HOPE OF MY FUTURE!

I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I WANT,

I CAN FEEL MY PASSION IN MYSELF..

ITS BURING...KEEP CALLING ME,KEEP REMINDING ME

THERE ARE SO MANY THING WAITING FOR ME TO BE DONE!

WORKING HERE IS JUST A BEGINNING.

I AIN'T JUST GIVING UP RIGHT HERE...

IT'S A OBSTACLE OF SUCCESS!

IF I CAN'T BEEN THROUGH IT,

SUCCESS WOULD NEVER BELONG TO ME..

NO ONE KNOW WHAT THE HELL IS GOING TO HAPPEN.

I MIGHT NOWHERE TO GO..YET I KNOW

ONCE I HOPING,THERE ARE STILL HAVE MY WAY WAITING FOR ME!

好久不見,我又躲了好一陣子了.我必須承認開始我的部落格並不是出於我的意願.但無論如何.我還是支持下來了.而且似乎反映不錯.陸陸續續交代了不少流水賬,對於愛窺探名人隱私的人應該知道的八卦付之闕如.而對於関心我`的朋友我應該交代得過去.當然一些真心的交流也是有的但我還是要袒白的是我不是個好相處的人.我更不是一個容易和人分享內心世界的人.不管是真是假我真的佩服那些可以大談自己私生活甚至圖文並茂的攤在網上的熱門部落格作者.我要在此向他们致敬.這對我來說是永遠達不到的境界.

   說了這麼多廢話並不是為了我的懶惰辯解,而是想讓你們知道我的努力.從小到大我保留了幾本日記,但本本都寫不過一學期.而且內容都是日程進度報告,偶爾一兩篇發洩情緒之作也是支離破碎不知所云.我不是不想記下這些生命中的奇蹟但是文字是不足以記錄這一切.至少我的寫作能力不足以完全的表達.所以我只能用心體會用身體一切的感官去記住這些時刻.會忘記嗎?你說呢.這些記憶總是會在最適當的時間狠狠的敲痛你.或在午夜夢回時唏噓不已.或有人說寫作是為了重新經歷而後重生.我當然瞭解文字的治癒能力.只是我能比一般人任性而且驕傲的說-我有自己的音樂.透過每一張唱片的企畫製作以及宣傳等等過程,我能完成比寫作更徹底的內省.由歌詞的字字計較到錄音時的嘔心瀝血.不是誇張的我每次笑說我得吃飽了才能唱,是因為錄音過程中我再次經歷了生命的種種,而且我得用盡力氣去唱出這些感覺.不能只是發洩更要成就完美.而最近我就是再經歷這個浴火的輪回.又一次挖掘記憶底層小心包裹好的檔案.再一次的經由音樂歌聲重演一遍又遍直到精疲力盡為止.

   所以最近的我總處於極端的情緒矛盾之中.時而狂喜忽而憂鬱甚或悲傷,時而平靜卻又不停自我較勁的內心騷動.這就是我的人生療程.所以我要要求你們原諒我的不回應.也在平安夜裡借由一番的牢騷表達我是多麼的想寫些甚麼來真心祝福你們---聖誕快樂

above wasn't my statement,but someone I loved :D

quiet and go away，should I?

I don't know why this love wasn't what i expected,

LOVE isn't same like what i thought

just can't find the direction towards you.

just forget about how to forget it...

standing where's raining tears drop from eyes

just don't know where to go

You kept calling over the hearts of millions of

just can't stop finding of you

 quiet and go away，should I?