what happen today

Today my green house got marching practice

and i stay back to taech my member abt the transformation.

yea,quite angry and i really wanna shout towards them...

but dunno y...

i found myself is different than b4 nowadays..

i'm totally changed.

i din shout at them at all,

sumre can keep playing with them...

i'm take this x vry serious?

well,x really...

my lst year..i wan evrythng to be vry perferct..

i wan my green house win the house cup..

already 3 years...

i canx stand any longer now..

i knw my appearance can make green house proud of me.

im x shame to say that.

coz frm the beginnig im the 1 who did evrythng without asking 4 hlp

i try to settle it as soon as posibble as other presidents are slower thn me..

my lion's heart is gttg stronger..

i dun care wat ppl say i juz wan to do it in exactly MyWAY!!!!!!!

B4 the marching practice start,

i went out v pn rozita&pn hafiza.

we went to shop to find green shirt 4 our marching team.

and then in the car i juz simply tell i x yet eat.

then pn hafiza asked wan eat mcdonald o x..

i told her no,i will juz eat in canteen.

thn we all juz silent...

aftr a few minutes,

oni i realise we reached mcdonald.

yea,thy belanja me mcdonald..

so good.....

that's my return 4 my hardworking^^

i still rmbr kst time me,abi n stephania went out v pn hafiza

it's really a happy moment 4 me

that time im still form3 and dun need to decide anything.

anything juz let the senior to decide and i juz follow...

but now...i need to decide it...with x 1 help...

this is my way to grow up...to be mature...

my way maybe x unique but is different compare to others.

im x like others...

thy have some1 to guide bside so even thy did mistake oso gt to share

but me..is anthr story..

x 1 can share v me...

my duty and i will juz oni can share it with myself...

i dunno it's heavy o x..all i juz mind is how long i can stand...?

i dunno ppl's symphaty..

i knw myself vry well..

even thy say thy care 4 me 

bt deeply in their heart thy oni care abt my glory x my sadness

Uncontrolable Feeling...

I dun wan to admit this to my friends..

yes,ya la...

i like him..

yayaya,since i was form 4

that time i notice he keep looking at me,so i try to fool him back..

keep playing around with him...

the feeling came since lst year sport day..

i remembered that day is a vry busy day 4 me..

but i dunno y i still got time to make fun with him...

i realise he quite care abt me..

Got 1 times, i cried..but x in frnt of him...

he oni saw my face n eyes vry red..

thn he asked why but i din ans it..

he tried to tell joke and wanna cheer me up...

it's so obviously.

i told my frenz abt this..

thy asked me to stay away frm him..

x a smart choice to fall in love v a guy like him.

i hv x idea...

even i knw it will x b a happy ending but still i canx control my own feeling..

i keep on lying to myself im gt flg towards him.

but day n day,day gttg longer i found myself...

OH GOSH,

he is really treat me vry nicely!!

my frenz told me the way he look at me vry different..

N evrytm i pass by he will use a weird sight looking at me..

actually i realise evrythng...

i knw evrythng...

evrythng mre thn wat thy noticed.

And i think he nearly..like me...

tat's juz my opinion..

i wish my guess is correct but false too..

i'm so confusing...

wat happened?

yesterday he came into my dream..

it's x worst actually..

i found it so sweet to think abt him...

i thnk of him more thn 10 a day...

so comfortable to talk v him in phone..

1st time tok to a guy can be so comfortable..

i miss him in evry second..

i dunno do he feel the samething??

when i was gttg in trouble,he is d 1 who trust me..

Got sm1 told teachers im a lesbian.

IT'S HIM!!!it's him who save me!!

he explain it to teacher...

he tried to pretect me...

till now...

i wish i could...

escape..

u knw smtm is so uneasy to face the fact or the truth...

humanity..haiz...

but now i really have to admit it..

i got feeling towards him..

sorry,plz 4gv me!

LOVE HER 4EVER

Yea,still remember this picture??

hehe, i edited it since last year..

i thought of give pn sartina last year...but coz of some unhappy incident...

i plan to give up it...

but today...dunno y..

i suddenly feel like wanted to give this to her..

so juz now recess i gave it to her.

she touched and she said vry nice^^

well,i'm damn excited to hear that=)

i really really really vry appreciate her!!!!

I LOVE YOU

PN SARTINA=>

NEW STYLE^^

What is Love?

What is Love?

Our favorite description of love is from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin:

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

-St. Augustine

science center

huhuhu....=.=

this saturday is goin to sit 4 car driving theory examination

got 500 theory inside the book

but I din touch at all.

haha >.<

i dunno wat i wan la....

juz dun wan to touch any "book"

yea, i know...

i'm just wasting my time by on9

but what 2 do? i like it wat! =P

hehe

if got any exam o anythng about photography sure i fly to there.

D90..waiting 4 ME!!!!!!!!!!!

and i had capature some photo from science center.

give some opinion

i LOVE photography!!

i love this skull,hehe~~

always about science=)

a kind of language^^

luckily x shark inside..haha XD

FUTURE CAREER

this time my stories is about my future career...

hehe,

i wanna be a photographer.

i freaking want to be photographer!!

now i tried to trained my skill by helping my class capture some photo,

it's not professional but i know i will be among the best in future!=)

now i have to concentrate on my SPM which is an examination very important 4 my future direction.

after my SPM,my mum can stop working anymore!!!

I'm so happy everytime I think abt that!!=D

after spm,i will started find a part time job while waiting 4 my spm results.

i have to take care of my mum adi...

she is the only i left..

since the incident she get i hospital i found myself nothing without her.

I don't want to make myself to work hard..

maybe i will be very tired but that's deserve.

if compare v wat mum had done 4 me,it's just a small cases

mum i love you!!!!!!

i will work hard!

CONFUSING MY HEART

DID MY HEART BREAK THIS TIME?

I contacts with my ex few days ago.

I had delete her from my facebook's friends list&block her in msn

but few days ago....

I told my sis,shafiqah..tat i miss him so much..

she try to comfort me...

and finally i decided to remove the block in msn.

Because i knew she will find me 1st

And she REALLY msn me 1st.

we started to talk.

it's took a very long time.

he told me how's his life....

and the important thing..

he already find himself a new one...

well,I got no feeling at that moment.

my mind is totally blank

I don't know what I should tell him..

I'm don't whether i'm happy or sad.

NO FEELING AT ALL

But I wish he is happy with his new lover sincerely.

I know I can't change his mind anymore,

& i found myself already no more feeling towards her.

It's may be a good news 4 both of us.

Now,I am a sister 4 him....

ya,he called me sis in msn...

sincei don't know a better ways to avoid that.

after msn with him,I ly on my bed.

It's so silent tonight.

I felt empty.

I was keep thinking about what we talked in msn.

and the memories back to my form 2.

i wrote a letter my feeling towardshim.

the feeling grow stronger aftr happened some incident...

1st time i fell in love with someone so deeply.

He is the one i love the most and the one hurt me the most.

but he really make me become stronger.

I just dunno wat to say when i knw he got new 1..

i wish him happy with new 1...

but i...

confused..........

just CONFUSING!!!
BUT THAT TIME WHEN I STARTED TO LOVE YOU,I DECIDE TO GIVE YOU HAPPINESS
SINCE NOW I AM X MORE THE ONE WHO CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY
I JUST WISH YOUR NEW ONE IS REALLY YOUR TRUE CHOICE

The day you finally decide to love me will be the day after the day I have given up on chasing you

What should I Do??

Oh God,

i wish you can tell me what should i do?!

i'm tired of keep explain it....

if two of my sister jump into the river,who i gonna save 1st??

DAMN!! That's a stupid question,k?!

i don't even can swim,

what you wan me to do?

jump into the river and join them die together??

oh please,

the river is x that deep!!!!!!!

I am also a normal human being!

I'm not as perfect as what you think...

i just wan some space&peace...

2 also my beloved sister...but what answer you want to get from me???

Izit you will be happy when you get the answer you want and others get hurt?

Did you ever think of my feeling?

Did you ever think of shafiqah's feeling?

she is still young...

i hope you can understand

please be mature abit!!

shafiqah is x same like you.

she&me having the same background

she don't have a father and don't have any sibling.

I wanted her to be my sister so deeply

BECAUSE i know i can protect her.

And she can fully understand me...

the lonelyness inside my heart 4 17 years

I finally found her to be my sister!!!!!

i dun wan to loose any1!!

Don't you understd??

I kinda of sad you'll react like this..

u make me so sad and dissapointed.

i don't want anythng frm u...

i just want u to understd...

MY FEELING!!!!!!!!!!!

Zhi Hw3y's Birthday 2/2

haha^^she looks very shy~~~

they are my new friends. Amanda Ccy&Jiajia

sChOOl LiF3~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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