Fall In Love

I realize that once have a guy close to me, keep playing with me,I will started fall in love with them.Its a good new fallen in love with a guy fo me who studies in girls school. this prove that I am not a lesbian or what. Unfortunely,all the guys I love had married or they are too old for me. The one who already get married I know that they would not fall in love with because theylove their wife and children and I am just a student who are no one for them but I just cannot let go...I too sincere once I fall in love...
  And April this year,I went to a camp and met a fasi there. First I saw him I not really like him because he is too talkative and keep on talking to my senior(girls). I started to like him is on the second day.That time we were going to the waterfall. And we have to go in the jungle,the journey was very long. I am the leader for my group so I have to walk in front and that time I felt very unlucky!!Because the fasi was walk in front of me! On the way,he was walking too fast and everyone were leave behind except me. He talked to me while waiting for others. When getting longer I no more dislike him and keep joking and playing with him. He is quite a naughty man. He keep on using the wood stick to beat me.

  After we came back from waterfall,we were going to have another activities ang he is not joining us. And that activities I accidently get bit from a "pacat". It's was so damn unlucky!
 At the night,we were going to have a activities named "kembara emosi" which mean we have to close up our eye with cloth and go in the jungle. I felt very nervous when I heard that. Then the fasi ask me what happen?

I told him that I felt scared,he quitely turned to my teachers and told them that just now in jungle I keep bully him! that's not truth!
  After a while he came near to me and asked where is my cloth then I showed him my sport cloth(the sport stationery to wear on head). He asked what is that and straight away take it from my hand and wear it! I was very suprise. After that he take off the cloth and straight away wear for me to close up my eyes. I was very shy that moment.A guy was closing my eyes! Oh my god!
  After all the prefect was ready,we started to go in the jungle. I thought that the fasi who will take my group will be our group fasi but who know is him. He was holding my hand! I felt very panic and not dare to say a words. He was holding my hand very tight...and then he asked me:"scared?" I answered:"may be."
then he said:"if I am here you would not scared right?"
that no words can describe my feeling at that moment! I felt like that moment suddenly everything turned silent and no one else is there only he and me. I felt nervous but safe. Nervous because I was holding his hand very tight like couple with him...Safe,because he is with me going to the jungle...He will protect me no matter what happen. That moment my heart really beats very fast,I had never feel like that before...I wish that the time can stop at that moment forever. Don't let me know whether he love me or not just let me keep the feeling forever.

My love

my love,if i want you to live here for me...answer me,would you?
And,it cuts like a knife when all i can see is your weak shadow,playing with my mind,
when you never turn to look at me,
Everything i gave you,my love...so it ends just like that?
My heart beats for you and only for you,my love
A tear full of empty sadness will never be able to transform into the love i've always dreamed of,
and designed for all this time,
The being who loves me,means nothing to me,
And every person i've loved, i've never appreciated.
What's happening, my love?
Is this love for you,not deep enough?

Or this love i've always had for you wrong?
I have nothing to say to you,but this, my love.
Did you ever love me,even once?
Is it true,that love always there for me when i needed to love?
If it is,tell me, why has my love been disregarded?
Why all the clouding sadness?
Why all the tears that were in my heart sent away?
Why does this pure love out of fresh innocence not loved as the way i have loved?
My love, i don't understand,i don't get it,what has happened?
After the feud,my love,i want it...i need it your faith and trust in me kept high again,
I'm tired of begging, my love.

It is enough.
Let what that has been done,has been done..
Leave it in the past.
Let it go because I cannot live another day,
My love, to see you with your broken heart unmanded.

Friendship

Life is.........

Life is a road with unexpected turns

Sometimes it's good, but many times it burns

We try to make the best of what we get

But sometimes it's hard, so we try to forget

We think our problems will go away

But they'll be back another day

Many times they will break your heart

It feels like everything has fallen apart

There are many bumps in this road of life

Many of which, cause hardship and strife

On this road, if you're lost and alone

Stick by your friends and they'll bring you home

Friends who share

Simple, ordinary times in our lives,

Moments that become memories

That stay in our hearts forever...

And we will never, ever be the same.

Some people come and go in our lives

Like passing ships,

Nameless faces or forgotten dreams,

Who never meant to be part of our lives

But they are.

Kindred spirits who come into our world,

They touch our hearts

And make a difference in our lives.

They give us the gift of friendship

And we are not alone.

Human Rights

Other homeless people are ex-offenders. They have paid for their crime and yet they find themselves unable to find a job and therefore without resources. It is sad that many people coming out of prison have nowhere to go and may eventually end up in prison again. Often these people have been exposed to drugs in prison and will resort to dealing as a means of making money.

Anyone is capable of turning to crime out of desperation, ending up harming others in an attempt to steal money. If people become homeless as a result of family breakdown or employment problems, should we not as a society make a stronger effort to help these people? Homelessness and having no money creates a climate for crime which is what we want to prevent. One of the ways of preventing it could be to offer more support to people before they find themselves homeless. For example, young people could have anonymous safe places to go to if they are in abusive situations. They should know that there is at least one adult at school who they can talk to, or a number they can phone. Although there are charities offering phone line assistance, it is not sufficient.

The people who receive the least sympathy, it seems, are the mothers with small children. Although they may not be sleeping rough, these families are often in very cramped accommodation and they cannot really make it feel like a home. If they are fortunate enough to be given council housing they are often envied or disliked by others and made to feel that they have been given something they do not deserve. However, we do not know their circumstances and they may have been the victims of sexual abuse or domestic violence. It would be far better for them and their children to be in a safe place than to risk further violence.

Homelessness is a problem all over the world. Places affected by flooding and earthquakes suddenly have thousands of people whose homes have been demolished and who have no possessions. Places in Africa that experience severe drought conditions force people to try to find food elsewhere. Unfortunately the result is often groups of homeless people who are starving.According to the United Nations, more than 100 million people worldwide have no housing whatsoever. This becomes a serious Human Rights issue and although we might like to think it is mainly a problem in the developing countries, the truth is that in first world countries such as the UK and United States, the number of homeless is growing. Although it is helpful to donate to charities who offer help, or to give people food, more needs to be done. Adequate housing needs to be available and we have to change our attitude towards people who may be in dire circumstances through no fault of their own.

suffering friendship

How do I tell you I'm sorry -

With a gesture, a look, a touch?
How is it I never realized

I hurt you so very much?
I do not ask forgiveness,

A comfort I'll never deserve.

I merely want to let you know,
But I cannot find the nerve.

To finally confront you, face-to-face,
To look you in the eye,

To face your wrath, your apathy -

Too terrified to try.
You called me selfish, I turned away,

I festered and I fled;

Cutting and wounding and lashing out,

Just to see if you bled.

Betraying and deceiving you,

I surely had no right

To snatch away such a precious gem;

A dark thief in the night.

Four years and forever passed

To bring us to this day,

When I present these simple words

I never thought to say.

The time has come, it's long past due,

To put aside my fear;

Would this confession torture you,

Or have you longed to hear?

To hear those two forbidden words,

To vanquish all the pain,

To understand my dearest wish:

To know you once again.

The years aged me remarkably,

Though they have not made me wise;

I do know I erred irrevocably -

For that I apologize.

After I lost my best friends,vivian&munyi,my life like very lonely...no one else can be with and listen to my problem. Eventhough I know that there are still many true friends around me but my heart just couldn't accept the new one. I know myself need a true friend but when everytime I saw them with others my heart felt very pain... Am I jealous? No,but fear... I don't want to lost any of my friends. May be that the reason till now I still having distance with them... I tried to join them... Honestly,I felt alone than ever when they are happy... I don't know the reason...

Till today my heart still very pain... I very hate vivian and munyi! But deep in my heart I really very appreciate our friendship... Its truth. I told myself if once day they turn back and apologize I swear I will forgive them. I don't care what had they done to me I just wanted our friendship back to the beginnig. Please GOD bless me... I am really suffering... my heart cannot stand longer,give me one more chance to repair our friendship... I willing to do anything as long as I can get back the friendship with them...I love you,GOD!