Jesus`lover of the soul

After all the obstacle I been through in 2011
I would really wanna thank to my lover of the soul, Jesus :D
Sometimes I will blame why are You not there with me
leaving me damn alone
Let me face all those problems alone and helpless
but then I found out I was wrong..
and so wrong...
You are the love of my life...How can blame everything on you?
This is my life.. this is all what I had to goes with to grow stronger
I am so sorry Jesus, please forgive me.
sincere from my heart, please accept my apologize.
sometimes when we are in trouble we always blame...
blame everything...
but this is really a silly thought ever
I would never do this again.
I love you,Jesus.. deep in my heart
I realize all my mistakes and silly thought after I calm myself down..
fled back all the scene..
yea, i was totally helpless, hopeless at the harsh moment..
but still...there are a final solution at the end.
Jesus, you did help me a lot.
yes, my life is a chess for you..
in the chess board either you have to win or lose,
or else you can't end it. no replay.
same as life... you only can continue till you find the solution
no pause, no replay... keep go on with it..that's the only choice
You help me when I fall...
you sent me helpers when I get hurt.
you hug me when I felt weak...
everyone you sent is You.
Jesus, you are always around me like what written in Bible.
I should knew it from the earlier!
how could I be this idiot?
Jesus.. thousand of thank you&appreciation I wanna say to you.
I can't imagine how STRONG you are.
I can fully feel your appearance now..
I promise you I will pray everyday from now on.
I always blame I didn't have a happy family background,
everything seem to be so wonderful-less to me...
for this 18 years...
but...Jesus, no more...
I would never think of that again!
I wanna live happily from now on.
yes, i did happier than before,the past few years of my life.
You gave me so much.
I wanna forget all my past and start everything again.
I'm willing to give you everything, Jesus
my body, my heart, even my soul...
I trust you.
I believe you will always beside me.
I trust you, Jesus.

I LOVE YOU, JESUS! :D