back on me

met up v my old friends which i named them as my geng
haha,curious?
they aren't from malaysia.
well,people always asked why do i have so many different country friends?
i didn't reply,i don't think it is necessasary to reply anyway.
abit stupid to answer anyway.
they are not just a friends. they are more than that.
but no body know. the problems is who care?
i got my own ways to protect my friends just like how they protect me all this time.
they are just like always amazed me every time.
they know what exactly what i want like they can read my mind..
but of course sometimes i'm good in cover.
I'm an ordinary what? ordinary? not a right words to describe myself.
only 1 words suit me more....but i ain't telling it out.
I finding a "company" to "sponsor" my "life".
I ain't gonna be myself in this "company",but be the one who they want me to be.
what is really important for me? i have no idea.
like i have nothing to regret of.
you might care for me like you are really someone to me...
but do you ever think of know the answer from me?
if you really want to know,i can truly swear to you i will let you know the answer.
there will no lie from me to you. no matter who are you.
I choose to give up myself doesn't mean i lost my pointer.
i know what i am up to and i am choosing something which is no right.
no explanation just...I want it to happen.
On me,on myself like what they want it,i'll just give.
that's what i offer show who I will be.