im so lonely

day after day......

i felt more lonely than ever

my friends dun understand me

my mum busy with her work

1week i almst gt 5 day argue o din tok to her...

4 this 17 years i realise im really alone...

i had been alone 4 17 years...

each time playing with my doll..

i remember i heard my mum told my aunt that i pshcology problem

till now it still x cure...

maybe become more worse..

y it hppn?

coz im toking with my doll?

stress of academic?

friends fight?

x caring frm mum?

im so scared 4 no 1 care abt me...

doraemon oso dun wan tok to me adi...

i tok to her but that's no more reply...

17 years...she accompany..

now she no more bother..

she juz slp beside me but x respond at all..

i guess is time now

i guess now is the time adi....

haiz..gonna study vry hard..

many thing happen tiz few month

i dunno how to describe my feeling n the scene

should i describe myself become more mature?

or started be more careful?

i start dun believe any of my friends

all my trust is my 2 sister...

i dunno since when my heart started to become so pain

evry morning i woke up

i juz move my left hand a little bit

my heart started to pain...

and 1 more bad newz to me...

i get nasional service

i dunno i shud feel happy o sad?

i really dun wish i get it..

i wan to escape it...

this reality remind me of sum1..

my 1st love..

i always escape...i nvr try to face the truth

that what she said.

She...

i feel vry dissaponted to her...

she now is a playgirl like me..

but i nvr wish her to be so...

i canx accept it...

i started canx accept many of fact............

Maafkan saya

akk sngt menyesal dgn semua yg terjadi...
maafkan akk...
akk tdk berniat utk melukai hati awk...
maafkan sbb akk tdk selalu disisi awk sems awk perlukan akk...
akk yg bersalah..
jgn lg bersedih...

biar hancur

Maaf la...blog ini ak guna untuk sampai kan isi hati

x kira hal gembira ke sedih...

blog ni setakat untuk sendiri

tapi entah mula sejak bila ak tahu ada seorg akan datang baca blog ak

ak mula2 tulis semua ni bukan untuk nya baca...

tapi sekarang..........

article ini harap2 dia boleh baca,

ak bukan seorang yang baik...

bukan seorang manusia yang sempurna

cuma insan yang biasa

mungkin kadang2 awak rse ak x care dgn awk

ak selalu cuba menghiburkan ko dgn pelbagai cara

ak ingat semua ni cukup untuk menarik perhatian ko

tapi bila ak tahu ko rapat dgn org lain...

leh mesra dgn org lain drpd ak...

ak rse cemburu...

ak tahu ko sayang ak...

ak pun sangat sayang ko.....

tetapi ak rasa ak dah melampaui batasan...

kte ni tiada sebarang talian perdarahan langsung

ak dah cuba yang terbaik

ak masih tidak mampu nak menghibur ko sme mcm kwn ko...

lg2 kwn ak jg blh rapat dgn ko....

ak....

dah nak tinggalkan skola ni...

mungkin dah x da mse leh menemani ko lg...

ak x snggp melihat ko sedih....

biar semua ni akhir di sini je la...

yg pasti ak betul2 syg ko...........

kuso2 i wanna make a different

Jeff Zhang 张信哲

最近有突然迷恋起阿哲了
哇~~~~~~~~~~~
他真的很可爱
我很喜欢听他的歌
虽然很多都是伤心歌曲  可能会让人痛不欲生
哈哈  说得太严重了
可是是事实嘛！
很喜欢他的声音
听他的已经让我很幸福了

信哲，我爱你哟！

SuckZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I have a mad day

Unexpected suprise

Today im really vry excited&happy

i canx believe it!

he already igmore 4 so many day and today

suddenly he came close to me and give me coklat in front of my friends

waw,it's so cool!!

haha

really so happy

but i wonder why he suddenly give me coklat?

4 apologize? wanna comfort me?

what a sweet brother..haha

luckily the coklat dun hv nut if x i really goin to give others XD

sook teng's birthday in KTV

missing you

oh my god...
he din talk to me for few week adi.
i asked my sis what happen
she told me maybe he wanted my attention
she said man should be have 1 feeling but seem like he did have 9 feeling
huhu~~~~~~~~~~
dun did that to me.
try to talk to me
lst week i went to met a teacher to ask sthg abt ict...
he was juz somewhere around.
he keep looking at me.
but i din look at him.
im regret of x look at him....
huh...y la...
dun b so small heart,can't u?
plz3........talk to me...
i miss the day talk to you.
dun juz let me look at u looking at me...
soon i will be mad.
im going to leave this school soon.
can't u juz let me leave with x sadness?? =(
missing you...

i love to be myself

i know is so bad to talk bad about friends

but i am telling anything im just writing

i have a friend who always thought that she is fantastic and all that

sometime i think we are friend so i just be patient to her..

even today

i did nothing wrong and i just talking with my friends

she stared at me!!?

what the fuck going on with her?

i whispered with my friends she said i talk bad abotu ppl?!

dun be so childish...plz...

u dun need to be jaelous with me..coz u r nothng...

i dare to say that...coz i think i more talent as what you think yourslef are...

oh plz....wat a funny...

luckily last saturday she got shamed..

if not she really dunno how worse she is...

i really dun wanna write this all in blog.

but what to do?

she is challenging my patient.

u r nobody 4 me to stared at me n challenge me

i admit myself is better thn u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

music life

I started to feel myself is so hopeless

i dun even have the passion to complete my wish

what am i doing all this time?

wasting time?? what?!

haiz............

just now i surfing to 1 of my primary friend's blog

we were band member

he can consist as my teacher or senior

now his level really till somewhere very far for me to reach it

i wonder y.............

why am i x doing thing that i wanted all this time?

i think i have to gambateh more

music....i never let you go

trust me! i will creat a really nice song which belong to me...........

God bless me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

告白

除了说爱你，我最喜欢靠在你的肩膀。


只有你可以给我那温暖


我的要求并不多，只是让我静静地待在你身旁


也许你难以相信


你是我第一个最爱的男人，爱得不成比例


我向上帝祈祷希望你是最后一个


唯独你是无法取代的


我说过我不在乎你是怎样的一个人


最重要的是我爱你你也深爱着我


爱情里扑满了荆棘我也要爱你


也许会伤痕累累，只要能证明我对你的心我愿意


不要以为我喜欢上不必负责任的热情


我是真的爱你，我从来没有对你说谎


你是我可以依靠的肩膀，可以停靠的地方


有你我一点也不寂寞


就算失去曾经的记忆我也不会忘记你的轮廓


我会用行动证明 因为爱就一个字


你累了可以抱着我 我可以给你安慰


不要说你是男人应该保护我 女生也不会让自己爱的人受伤


不要假装坚强，在我面前我可以包容你的一切