What's my feeling?

  yesterday was miss fee last day in this school and is her last day to teach us. Erm,for me...I did not take it very serious may be is because don't have any feeling on her...i guess,but anyway yesterday I had set a suprise for her as what I did before to my teachers and friends. Nothing very special just singing songs to her...And finally she cried when we were sang 'you are not alone' by michael jackson. It's really atouching song but it doesn't touch my heart...I really don't know what else I can say about myself...My past I was a very sensitives person just like miss fee always cryforsmall matter but now...may be I should thank to the God for giving those challenge and making me become stronger. I should be glad of it...I don't know I am too weak to handle sadness or what, everytime I being sad my heart will feel very pain sometime it's like burning inside like killing me...Since when I become very anti-people...not so close to anyone..,

  Few weeks ago I stared to be close with miss fee...I was feeling like better she leave this school as fast as possible...It's not because I dislike her or what I just afraid I couldn't control myself...It is so painful to feel...I never been so suffering like this...may be I got pshycology problem or may be that's something wrong with my heart...Almost every night I'm crying without reason but sometime I know is i'm feeling sad...What should I do to stop this from happening?God,is it not enough for the challenge you had given? What else you want from me? I am just a normal human being. what i can do is limited....