oh~~~~~~~my love

no doubt he is a MAN!!

jang keun suk..oh i wish he is my boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

who are you

its been a long time we lost contact

i dunno what to tell u

i dunno r u still reading this blog

im kinda of missing u

but just when im alone

ya....i begin to cure...

who are you to keep me missing you?

our love is just a past

i always appreciate it

i never forget it.

but i wan u to know...

i just want listen to ur answer

did u ever truly love me?

but no matter what is ur answer...

i wont turn back anymore.

u dun have to worry about me anymre.

just dun remember i had pass by ur life.

mp3

yesterday i thought of wanna buy mp3

so i simply ask siewying where can i get a mp3 with cheaper price

who know i am so lucky!
coz her father is work on sony so smtm they staff can buy with cheaper price

then she gave me a website for more information

GREAT! their design look stylish and modern.

just the price..ehem...

if i got job i will be able to buy it ofcoz.

i have choose 2 type of mp3.

1 for me and another 1 for my sis.

then i ask my sis who know she adi got a mp3....

im turn to moody 4 that sudden

haiz.................

she want to go for the beast,4minutes and G.na concert

well,she is my sis

so i just sponsor her...

erm.....................as long she is happy then enough la

but who know the next day

she said i can buy a mp3 for her to replace her old mp3.

im happy to hear that =) haha

but i dunno which want suit her....=(

video or style fashion wan?

oh my sister

i am so free after i finished my SPM few days ago.

suddenly i felt like may things had changed

my relationship with shafiqah like become so strange?

am i think too much?

i told this to siew ying...

she told me that shafiqah said i ignore her..did i?

i dont really realise that

i was busy with my exam tht time

she said our relationship just same like she and shashime...

erm...izzit so?

she said im shahismi...shafiqah is her.

she thought she will disturb me?

she will me to care about her by active sms her or find her?

ok,and i take her advice i tried to chat withe her

but she always offline after i chat..x even more than 5 minute or less...

im kinda of sad....

and i dunno what i can do to let her know i care for her.

escape from NATIONAL SERVICE

goverment oh goverment

why malaysia's female have to go for national service?

oh why~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

other countries all male goes...

why malaysia like to be so different???

i didn't get first batch so mayb i will be in second or third batch

but i dont want to go...

i want go for college

if i postpone i have to wait till i 35 years old only can go.....

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what la?!

its too old to go there la!!!

我的妈啊！你嘛拜托一下！

世界上什么人真的都有哦！

那个姓何的家伙真的是脸皮厚到~~~~~~~~~！！！

那天毕业典礼她向我道歉

然后到处跟人家讲我们和好了？！

还说我为她流泪？？

你也拜托一下！

你这个样子……我？！为你？！哭？？？

过去已经是过去了！

是谁破坏这段友情你自己最清楚！

你伤我多深还希望我忘记？？

我尝试过忘记，很可惜……

你这种人就是让我无法原谅！请你反省吧！

不要以为全世界欠你的！

人家对你好未必是把你当好朋友！

你知道同情吧！

事情是你自己搞出来的！

不要拖累任何人！

我喜欢的男人

就是喜欢他！;P

怕死

对自己的无能感到很讽刺……

刚才拿了一罐可乐放在桌子，

前阵子才刚生病所以有一包panadol

突然又想结束的念头

把一粒放进去……喝了一口

什么感觉都没有……

就直接放进四粒，味道好想谈了

之前中二很流行这样寻短，所以才知道吃了八个就会死

可是我突然怕死……

放进五个就不敢放了……

很可笑啊自己……

怕死还学人要死。

我不知道要怎样做才可以让自己好过。

看到prakash吸烟，就告诉他我也要，

谁知道他真的给我一支烟……

我那瞬间唯一想到的事是我怕死！

哈……哈……

真的很可笑！

吵架了

我最近和朋友吵架了

他们都没有和我讲话了……

我告诉美音这件事

其实我本来就有错，做错我是一定会道歉的。

只是有时候需要被提醒……

吵架了就开始互相伤害……

保持沉默是我唯一能做的。

我不想吵，其实吵架真的很累的

沉默的瞬间真的有所领悟。

可能自己又在做错了吧

是自己太倔强吧

我也不要求任何的原谅

朋友不应该是互相伤害的不是吗？

爸爸……你要我爱你还是恨你？

新的一年又要到了……

每年差不多这个时候都会收到一份礼物

一个我爱的人送的

“千里送鹅毛，礼轻情意重”？

我宁愿收到鹅毛……你什么时候会明白？

我不要你买任何东西

你知道我很辛苦吗？

可以回来吗？不，你不曾回来过……

你可以留下来吗？

我真的觉得很自卑！

每次看见人家一家，有爸爸，有妈妈……开开心心在一起

我和妈妈在一起也不是不开心，

只是你能了解吗？

我想要一个家！一个完整的家！

你留下我一个人照顾妈妈，可是你知道吗？

我根本没有能力一个人照顾好她……

她进医院我完全不知道如何是好

连家也不敢回！

我也是你的女儿！没什么我的待遇是这样？！

为了照顾妈妈，我让自己坚强起来！

去学男孩子会做的事！

你可以发现我的力气比其他女生大！你也可以触摸我的手掌！

根本不是一个女生应该有的！

为什么！你告诉我！

是我不乖吗？为什么你不要我！