A letter for you, Sweetheart

4/11/2011, Happy birthday my sweetheart! Its been 4 years since we broke up. I'm kind of missing you day and night even I tried so hard to keep myself busy. I found no reason for me no to think about you. Do this annoying u? I apologized if it does... I didn't mean anything. Well, I don't what to say or write actually. Just feeling like wanna talk to you... I had lost contact with you. yea, I knew you were very busy with your education of course... just still I wanna know are you now doing well? living happily now? or feel stress with your studies? About your studies,well, that's no words to say. You are a brilliant isn't it? I still remembered you are the top 3 in our school.

Gosh,I seriously don't know what am I writing now. But it doesn't matter,right? I don't think you'll spend your time to drop by and read any of my post or even this message. Perhaps that 1% of luck I can try out, there might be a miracle, who know? Well, sound stupid and childish I know. But what to do... I don't feel like wanna change because if I change you will never got to find back the wen ying  you love last time. Its just another way telling you that I am still here...waiting for you to turn back to me.

Few day ago, my friend fetch me back to my condo. And on the way, a song played...it make me think of the diaries I had kept in my wardrobe.... remember I had a habit of writing diaries? you like to ask me to translate it because you can't read Chinese. that 5 diaries..and I just realize almost every pages written with your name. Full of your name... it show that how meaningful you came into my life... diaries full with your name. You really have a beautiful name. fulfill my world with all your name..your smile.Do you still keeping the necklace that I gave you? "you are always on my mind" ... yea,always it do...